Friday, July 29, 2011

True Story

The trouble with making your dreams reality is that
Your dreams
Become
Reality.

They are no longer beautiful, tidy notions of sparkle and wonderment.
They have problems, they get trashed, someone fucks them up.
They're not pretty anymore.
They didn't mean as much as you thought they would.
They ruin everything.

When it's intangible, it's safe from your own erroneous judgement and it's safe from other people's heavy and cutting words and infallible stupidity.
When it's there, when it's real, it's vulnerable.
And it will
Get
Broken.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Eris

The toxic spill
The noxious fumes
The pain, the pestilence
Famine, chaos, discord

Hail Eris, they speak!
Their tongues tripping in jubilation!
The hearts of men held rapt by the furor.
Hail Eris, they cry!
Whoa, for she is merciless!

Her ivory fingers spreading poison throughout the land
And her apple, her golden fruit
Lobbed like a grenade between lovers and foes
Hail Eris, they shout!
Yea, for she is ruthless!

The willows weep and burn
The river runs red and wild
Stones crumble.
Hearts blacken.
Hail Eris, they speak!
Whoa, for she is powerful!

She sees what is good, and she weakens.
She sees what is pure, and she falters.
Within her box of misery, she is unprotected.
She is nothing without the pain of others.

Hail Eris, they shout!
Before castrating themselves for her sake
So she may thrive another day.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Untitled

I'm not mad that I'm late
I'm not mad that I'm inconvenienced
I'm not mad that I've lost a day
I'm not mad that all plans have been rearranged

I'm mad that I have to wait an additional 12 hours to see a face I've not seen in three weeks.
AND THAT... Is what makes it so strange.

Monday, June 27, 2011

Unknowing

Steeped with angels who softly fly
On browning, withered wings
The voice, the helm, the bitter taste
Of disputes
Of beauty
Of lies

For that planned encounter of chance
I wait within the pale discourse
On floors of ashen memory
We sing
We love
We dance

Clouded skies of wasted greens
Rain of wine, rain of guilt
Wires, codes, keys, and coins
For them
For you
For me

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Summer Roads

Summer roads,
Warm winds.
Warm smiles.
Think I'll stay here for a while.

Remember me by light and fire
Overnight, I'm yours and tired

Morning comes for human beings
Water first, but then its wings

Messanger between the gods
Weaker stable
Weaker lies

'Nother moon we miss eclipsed.
I know.
The tide is high,
Oh things...

They are in a box or car
They are knees and lips and scars
But not things, they grow so fonder.
Place in heart,
The mountains.
Thunder.

-The Ghost Writer

Monday, June 20, 2011

Loosely, Tightly

The air heavy, lost at night
Suffering from the day's defeat
Kisses of black and drinks of white
Salty skin on violent sheets
A touch of yearning, yet to please
Pressed deeply into your spine
Sitting there on burned knees
I decided then I'd call you mine

Friday, June 10, 2011

Mirrored

Eight years have elapsed since I've stood on that side of the mirror, staring in, hopelessly dying to know who I would be when I stepped through the glass.
Now, looking back, I can see another girl standing on that side of the mirror, not knowing it's me she's looking at on the other side. She's hurting, she's lonely. The world is small and in her hands, and the idea that tiny decisions today shatter the rest of your life haunt her.
She cannot hear my voice, and if she could, would she understand it?
If she did hear me, understand my words, what would I say to her?

Nothing.

It's not that I don't care, because I do.
It's not that I am bitter that no one helped me, because I'm not.
It's not that she needs my help, because she doesn't.

Her breath fogs up the glass and she writes letters to someone.
Begging for someone to swoop in and save her and tell her what she wants to hear.

I won't say anything to her, for fear of tainting what would be an otherwise perfectly uninhibited, uninfluenced, unguided growth into an unknown direction. She is beginning her embarkation on what she thinks is a seemingly fruitless, futile journey into becoming something amazing.
She is smart, she is strong, she is beautiful.
She has the capacity to be better than anything that ever was before her.

So I will maintain my seat, the priestess before the veil, and let her travel her own way to the moon.